struggling

I just found out that a friend of mine has been dealing with cancer for the past 4.5 months and I didn't know about it because I've barely been on Facebook since August.  I last saw her in late June for her 30th birthday.  I'm really struggling to figure out my feelings right now.

So many feels.





I still drive by her old house every time I go visit my parents.

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verge

Annnnnnnd today my boss was on the verge of tears.

Sigh.

It was actually a better day today, though.

We are a team with a vision.

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ugh

cried at work today.

it figures that the earliest day I left work since starting this new job (an accomplishment I was very happy with yesterday) would be followed by the latest day I've stayed at work so far.

I'm finally available to do something fun this Saturday but no one else is free.  MusicMan was supposed to be off but now has to work.  Everyone else I need a hug from is out of town or too far away.

once again, we're not going to have any time to get a christmas tree or lights this year.  i really thought this would be the year.

at least I got paid today...

ugh.  

54 / 5.5

Number of hours worked during the first week at my new job. / Average amount of sleep per night.

quote of the day

"I want to get married, not buried.."

turning point

"Relax, dress professionally, and be on time."




! 

eight years - an excerpt

Eight years of unpacking 

both real and of the mind 

The things we brought with us

and the new things we find

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send me all your vampires

Children love to sing

but then their voices slowly fade away 

People always take a step away from 

what is true... 

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Broke out some old CDs today.  Don't think I'll ever get tired of this album: 

amazon

Oh, late 90s music, I have missed you..!  

heal

pep

You can do it.



You are competent.



You are beautiful.



You are not unlovable.



You are worthy.